I think I'm doing better, but I frequently have moments of ... well, not-so-better I guess. I enjoy having my nails done, but I'm not really enjoying doing them ... still behind on the blog ... and periodically going through black moods, which is always when I seem to write more & maybe even better? I've never had a happy poem I like as well as my dark poems. And sometimes they're literal, and sometimes they're more metaphorical - you're welcome to take it in whichever way it speaks to you.
Speed bumps like mountains in my path
So much pain, and fear, and wrath
Looking down ... contemplating old scars
Distant - it's been so many years
And yet ... the thought is there, the urge
To purge with blood instead of tears
I wrote that sometime last week, although I didn't date it so I'm not sure exactly when. But I thought I'd post it up because it's been such a long time since I put up any poems.
Thanks for reading.
~Colette
This poem gave me chills. I used to be a cutter. I suffer from depression and I think you are so brave and selfless to put yourself out there to help people. I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope you know you are not alone.
ReplyDeletei like the poem, i think it is very creative.
ReplyDeleteThat was a beautiful poem, Colette. Stay strong, and it will all get better. Sending you hugs.
ReplyDeleteI'm not going to say I know how you feel, when I see somethig about myself in your poems.
ReplyDeleteRemember to go on doing the things that give you pleasure, even if you're tired and not so keen on doing them beforehand. And stay in contact with your body: stretch, go for a tranquil walk, taste and smell good things. That's what helps me to stand through those times.
There are people who care for you if you let them to, and there will be a better day someday.
Lots of hugs and strength to you!
this is from a favorite poem of mine - maybe you can relate?
ReplyDelete'the heart breaks and breaks and lives by breaking. it is necessary to go through dark and deeper dark and not to turn.'
from 'the testing tree' by stanley kunitz.